I haven't made one of these in quite some time. This will be on more of the venty side of things, if you don't want to see it, feel free to click away, it's nothing super important.
Lately I've noticed that I've become... irritated? by the people around me. It's not really their fault except for some asshats I gave an earful to, but for the most part I've been cool with everyone else up until around winter, and it's only gotten worse over time. Even talking to some of my friends has left me feeling aggrivated and drained. I don't know what' going on with me. Since I'm home for the summer and I don't really know how to hang out with people irl when I'm not at school, Most of my social interaction has been online. I've been kind of avoiding a few places on Discord recently, or at least I'm not as active as I once was. I find myself looking in there and just getting irritated and bored of the same conversations over and over. Fan spaces have been less enjoyable for me to nobody's fault but my own. I've even found myself getting more confrontational to people that are actually annoying others or are being dicks or whatever. I'm kind of okay with that in itself, but it's getting to a point where I feel like I'm almost looking for a fight. I usually just block and move on and don't think about it anymore, but now the feelings of anger and annoyance stick to me rather than fade as usual and I feel like I need to do something with it. I feel like I'm regressing back to who I was when I was on other social media sites and it sucks, I thought I left that part of me behind. I think I need a break from these places, but then I'd be in pretty much total isolation until I go back to school, where I'll end up being irritated by people in real life in places where I can't walk away from. This has been an issue with me since at least December or January, which is actually kind of typical for me to be in a bad state around that time, but for it to extend for this long is getting ridiculous. I'm tired of myself more than anyone else because of the way I've felt towards others. A lot of these people are so nice, I've gotten along with them fine for months and even years, what's wrong with me? If anyone I know sees this, sorry, it's 100% a me thing, you're fine, you're doing great, I'm just going through it or something.
Also, um I haven't been updating the site much, sorry, I had a couple of summer classes and I also kind of burnt myself out of working on the site, I must've bit off more than I could chew. Things will be done eventually. I need a nap.